I loved everything about Bella and Z’s story. At the same time, his ability to care about those around him even as he claims he doesn’t shows the resilience of the spirit. His contempt for himself is so incredibly difficult to read at times. Z believes himself dirty and unworthy of love because of the abuse he suffered. His determination to find her or to avenge her when he believes her dead allows him to care about her in a safe way. He begins to heal, however, from the first time he meets Bella. He has been damaged both inside and out by his time as a blood slave. I am a sucker for those damaged men who are healed by the women who love them. Weeks of captivity have begun to make her question who she is. Bella was immediately attracted to Z when they met. Bella’s loss has hit Z hard and he is obsessed with her. As LOVER AWAKENED begins, Z has been searching for several weeks for a female vampire, Bella, who was kidnapped by one of the soulless humans that the Brotherhood is fighting.

As a result of his century of being a slave, Z is physically and emotionally scarred. Kidnapped as child and forced to become a blood slave (used to feed on by another vampire), Z was also raped and sexually abused by his master. Zsadist is one of the brotherhood but goes his own way. THE STORY: The Black Dagger Brotherhood is a group of warrior vampires who are to protect the civilian vampires from threats. But you’re not dirty or contaminated or unworthy.”

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